Funky

I'm in a funk today. The weather was beautiful this morning, warm for November in Wisconsin and sunny. I planned out the afternoon - walk to the knitting club at the senior center, get some eggs from the free-range guy, then the post office, finish up with the library to get my books on hold. The weather changed around noon, clouds rolled in and wind kicked up. Then Vincent decided to take at 12:30 nap. We ended up driving to the senior center, noticing on the way that the free-range guy wasn't out today. I need eggs and hamburger! The kids were plain old freaky at the knitting club, talking too loud and Vincent was into anything. I got very little done, partially because I forgot to bring the second page of my pattern (dumb, dumb), so I didn't know what to do once I put the back neck stitches onto a holder. That lime green and navy will look so cuteo on Vincent once it's done, though! Abigail stopped with her knitting after about 20 minutes. I forgot to bring the PO package with us, so I said forget it. We'll go to the PO and library tomorrow. I hope the wind dies. I don't mind taking the kids for a walk when it's 20 degrees, but I won't take them out with a nasty cold wind. I need to get out and move, this is really driving me crazy. I'm letting the girls watch a movie right now because I just need some time to center. I hate doing that and I know I'll pay the price letter, but some days you do what you gotta do.

Vincent's reverse cycling is driving me nuts. My back is killing me from laying there all night long while he sleeps and nurses. It's not worth going to the chiro until Vincent goes back down to 4-8 nursings a night because no matter how good I'll feel after the adjustment, my back is just going to be wonky again by the next morning. I've tried and I just can't get him to nurse more during the day. He's so busy and there is so much for him to do, that he just won't nurse. I used to think Abigail's 8-14 nursings a night were a lot. HAH! I had no idea. I'm lucky if I can get him to unlatch long enough for me to go pee after midnight.

Bedtime is hard for me. Trying to get three little ones coordinated to get into their pj's, use the toilet/get clean diaper, read story and all tucked in is very stressful. Luis is zero help. His hours are sporadic and I can't count on his assistance. While I've found that it works best to put all three to bed at the same time, I don't like the person I've been while doing it. So I turned over a new leaf two weeks ago. Stay calm, start sooner, take deep breaths. It's been working. Bedtime is still tricky, but it's feeling smoother and calmer already. I'm a nicer person during it, and Isabella is calmer, assuming we don't start too late. But even when we do start late and she freaks out because of being tired, I'm trying hard to be calm and level. It's working, and helping.

I wish I had comments. I don't know that anyone is actually out there reading this, but comments would be nice just in case. Note to self: find out what it would entail to get a comments box.